will my dreams stand the test of time. that is the question is it non?

so here i am unemployed. i prefer to call myself a recent graduate because that word in itself sounds less threatening less final. but how long can i desperately cling to this title of the 'recent graduate' how long can i reap the benefit of attending college which now seems to be deep in oblivion. and as a 'recent graduate' the prospect of saving the world seems like a concept which continues to drift away from me. i prefer sitting in esoteric classrooms in the ivory tower discussing the plight of mankind and the social injustices in the world. the social injustices. the hatred the failing of humanity. then one day u wake up and it dawns to you. that was almost liek a figment of my imagination. a glimpse from the past. somehwere far away. a place i can barely reach. as i sit here in my much comfortable suburban home i cannot help but feel mad myself for pretending to understand suffering so acutely when i myself was very far from it. evne having spent my childhood years in nepal i was far from it. whilr my biggest issue in life is attempting to fidn a job. how am i contributing to alleviate suffering in the world? what am i doing right now except feeling self pity for myself for the lack of a job. how have i taken my education and benefited neone else. in the real world, do we forget about hte suffering? i am already missing my student days when i could ponder suffering for hours. but just becasue u can feel the angst and pain of suffering does not mean u are doing anything abotu it. and wut is the point in talking about it if nothing is being done. but here i am like so many recent grads. many of them like me do want to make this world a better place. but we get sucked into the capitalistic society we live in today...